The wedding

Dear diary,

*Sigh* I really don’t know what to say, but honestly? It’s been nothing but ruined. After I wrote the previous entry, I walked outside to a beautiful snowy landscape with two twin suns in the sky. The Doctor told me I looked beautiful. *Small smile* Anyway, before we could do any further, the Doctor went back inside to get Holly. She was asleep bless her but we woke her up to make her see her first adventure on an alien planet. Then I started tickling her but.... she didn’t react. I felt hurt even if she is one day old. In telepathy she said she did. *Pause* No... I don’t know. She started to cry and...I just hugged them both as tightly as I could. I made her cry. That makes me feel responsible as her mother.

...Anyway... After that, I saw an altar up ahead with only a celebrant waiting for us. We did get married. It didn’t last very long but....I was in tears of joy... Then back at the TARDIS... I realised...the whole ceremony didn’t feel right. Not that way I meant...it wasn’t perfect. There was none of my friends watching, there was no reception, no music... That was how I wanted. Instead, it’s just an alien planet with just us.  

The Doctor saw me upset and he...told me not to be sad. He said Holly was a mistake. Holly didn’t hear it luckily but... then he said he was a mistake. No...he wasn’t... he just doesn’t understand. He’s not a failure as a husband. He thinks that.

Right now... I’m in my room well...mine and the Doctor’s... I ran in there crying. A crib appeared at the end of the bed. I suspect the TARDIS put it here so I put Holly in there down to sleep. I’m sitting on the bed, crying and writing this diary. So yes, I haven’t stopped crying. I think I just....I can’t live without  him. That’s the thing. I hate all this argument, crying, hate and everything. I want to be happy. Now like this. And right now... I would need my mum. More than ever. Whenever I’m in situations like these, I always think about her. I miss her. So much......need her so much right now. It’s not fair.

At the moment, that’s all I need to say. I’m not in the mood to write anymore. Sorry.

Until next time, bye.

Day one of being a mother - Part 3

Dear diary,

Well, guess what? I’m getting married today! It will only be just me, the Doctor and little Holly. No one else is coming. I let the Doctor read my diary. I decided to get married today since I’m strong enough and he didn’t mind. Although I am a bit sore down there but nothing I can handle. I know I’ve just given birth on the same day but I want this more than anything. Being parents and husband and wife on the same day is just amazing.

Anyway, the honeymoon will wait for it. The Doctor wants to give me more chance to recover. It’s very sweet of him.  I can’t wait for it though. I’m sure it will be great.  

Above is my wedding dress I'm wearing right now. But I have to put on a cardigan on top of it because ot will be freezing outside full of snow. Just like I wanted.

I wore these beautiful white shoes. I like them.

Because of the snowy weather, I'm wearing this cardigan. It goes with the wedding dress very well. 

I styled my hair like this. All on my own.

The TARDIS left this bouquet outside the changing room. It's pink, white and red. It almost matches with the dress I'm wearing. 

Right now, I'm outside the changing room fully changed into the wedding dress. The Doctor is somewhere here putting on his blue suit. Maybe in the console room by now. I love it when he puts on his blue suit. He’s not wearing his tux because he said it brings him bad luck. I understand that. He doesn’t want to take any chances the poor dear.

You might be asking yourself why I brought my diary with me to the wardrobe. But I didn’t. It just randomly appeared. I recon it was the TARDIS again wanting me to write on the second page in bringing in this news.

I will probably write in this again after we’re married. I’ll see. I might be busy...you know...

Until then, bye for now.

Day one of being a mother - Part 2

Below these are all the pictures of my little baby daughter Holly:

Day one of being a mother - Part 1

Dear diary,

Today has been a very tiring day. I gave birth to my beautiful baby daughter today which we named her Holly months back. She's so beautiful. She has my colour blonde hair and possibly she'll have the Doctor's eyes too. I think she has two hearts as well since me and the Doctor are both Time Lords. A perfect combination. It took about 2 or 3 hours to give birth. The Doctor is not here at the moment. He's in the kitchen cooking for me.

I haven't written diaries since I was a kid so I'm be very brief with this. Right now, I've never felt so sore and exhausted in my life. This has been hard work. If I ever have more kids in future, I will try to avoid having a natural birth because it's so painful and very exhausting. It takes all of your energy out of you. Me and the Doctor haven't spoken about this yet. I maybe will tell him later.

There's so many things running through my head right now. There's so many things I want to say to him but I never seem to get the chance too. I easily get distracted when I'm with him. I don't know why. Although the reason should be obvious. Like I'm still engaged and we haven't even spoken about when we're getting married. I've been engaged for the last 8 months ever since I've been expecting little Holly.

Anyway, above is a little picture of Holly. She's sleeping right now in the nursery. She takes my breath away. It reminds me when I was little. My mum said I was like a doll when I was born....... my mother.... I still miss her. I wish she would see my now. She would be so proud of me.

Before I say too much, I'll leave my diary on here. Bye, until next time.